Tuesday, February 25, 2014

~My Journal: It Just Feels Good~

I wrote this in my journal on July 11, 1995: In the midst of a storm in our life our 5 year old daughter Deena asked, Mommy is Jesus here? I answered, "Yes!" She saw that her dad and I were struggling emotionally and asked, "Where?" I replied, "Deena, pretend you are mommy and daddy okay? Now I will be the part of Jesus." I then picked her up in my arms like a baby and carried her around the room. She giggled!

Later in the car, she asked, "Mommy, is Jesus still carrying us in the car?" I said, "Yes, He is!" Deena replied, "I like that." I asked her why and she answered, "because it just feels good."

The Lord is my keeper......Psalm 121:5a

Even though our little girl could see that her mom and dad were struggling, I was able to reassure her that we were trusting God to carry us through this storm and all life's storms in our future.

This picture was taken of my youngest daughter Deena around 1995 when we were at Chucky Cheese.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Wearing Woes!

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. Philippians 4:8

We need to remember that everyone has problems, fears, anxiety, betrayal, and this list is endless. No one is immune to difficult circumstances. No one has the monopoly on problems and issues in this  world either. There is enough to go around. We can't control the difficult circumstances that come into our life and we can't always control how we wear our woes.


1. grievous distress, affliction, or trouble.

All the positive thinking in the world will not work to help overcome the wounds life may bring but God can heal us in ways we don't expect.

When in the midst of conflict or problems in my own life, God sends reminders to me of all that is good. For example, I can hang around one of my grand kids who hugs me so tenderly and tells me they love me and all is well in my world. My husband and I have moments when the young adults at church will say or do something for us that our hearts become overwhelmed with joy. God has provided nieces and nephews in our life that lift us up just by hanging around them. We thank God constantly for the sweet relationships He gives us each day. My husband and I remind ourselves to take time to reflect on all the good that God has provided and we want to wear our gratefulness. Is our life perfect? Of course not, but most days it feels pretty close because of the relationships God gives to us who become the hands and feet of Jesus in our life.

My prayer today is to thank God for all that is good today and to trust Him with all that is not...

 This picture was taken by my mom in Spain of a poppy field in 2006.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Help Wanted: Holy Spirit

One thing I have learned is that I cannot control anyone or anything. When I was younger I believed I had the power to change the world. I'm not sure where I developed that thought process but I really did think I could. After raising my own children, I have certainly been humbled into knowing I can't control even a small child, a teen, or adult child. My children ALL have a mind of their own.

There are times when I want to control what others are thinking, feeling, believing, etc. I give it my best effort in trying to convince them of what I believe is the better way to think, feel, believe, etc. It sounds to me like I may have some control issues but I will write about that on another day. God has given everyone a free-will and we have to honor that in each individual.

Only God can change the heart of any individual. Allow God to change others internally because it's the only possible solution. It seems there are so many of us who try to be the "Holy Spirit" in the lives of others but that just does not work. First of all, when I am consumed with how others behave then I have taken the focus off myself and what needs to change in me. Secondly, if I am concerned over someone's actions then that should just be a reminder to bring them before the Lord and leave them there. It's God's job, not ours ~ so let it go! God may or may not change that individual but I guarantee He will change our own hearts in a way we never dreamed possible. ~

Life would be simpler and more enjoyable when we focus on God and His desire for our lives! Stay focused!

~ This is the day that the Lord hath made.....I don't want to mess it up!

This picture was taken of my youngest daughters little one on February 2013. She is wearing a dress that her own mama used to wear when she was the same age.

Monday, February 17, 2014

God's Road Map For Life

      Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
                              And lean not on your own understanding;
                              In all your ways acknowledge Him,
                              And He shall direct your paths.

written December 31, 2010:
God has a plan and purpose for each one of us and wants to direct our lives in every way. We need to seek His will each and every day in order to stay on the right road of life. If not, we will lose our way and it can become very difficult to get back on the right road and will delay us to where He wants us to be......

My prayer: Lord, forgive me for not going in the right direction and please guide me today so that I will not get lost but instead be able to accomplish what you need for me to do!

The meaning and purpose you find in helping others will enrich and expand your life.

 A picture I took of the ocean in 2009.

Friday, February 7, 2014

A Matter Of The Mind!

Two elderly couples were enjoying friendly conversation when one of the men asked the other, "Fred, how was the memory clinic you went to last month?"
"Outstanding," Fred replied. "They taught us all the latest psychological techniques - visualization, association - it made a huge difference for me."
"That’s great! What was the name of the clinic?" Fred went blank He thought and thought, but he couldn’t remember.
Then a smile broke across his face and he asked, "What do you call that flower with the long stem and thorns?" "You mean a rose?" "Yes, that’s it!" He turned to his wife and said, "Rose, what was the name of that clinic?"

Mark 13:31 Jesus said: "Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away."

Last year I suffered a mild form of dementia due to personal circumstances that were out of my control. I immediately went to see a doctor and a psychologist to see what I could do to save my sanity and my mind. It was a very frightening time for me and for my husband. Fear became as much a physical problem as it did emotional.  Fortunately, I have a wonderful support system of family and friends that were able to help me stay on the right course to get the help I needed.

My physician explained that in life some times when things happen that affect us in a very stressful way that the mind does stop because it is the only way to cope with that particular difficulty. In time he said, it would process the situation and be able to function as it once did if I took some necessary steps to overcome the physical damage. My psychologist validated my feelings of helplessness and kept me accountable in keeping my focus on what I needed to do in overcoming the emotional damage. My family and friends had to adjust to my being more dependent on them in some areas of my life. It was a new journey for me and one that I learned more about the love I need from God and the love he showed me through others.

Fortunately, there has been much recovery and more understanding of my limitations. I recognize now what is happening and when it is happening and know what to do. I have learned that God has a purpose for me even when I am weak physically and emotionally. I have learned to trust Him in the midst of my fears and that he will take care of all that I cannot control. I don't beat myself up like I did when this first began but instead trust God to make right all that I have gotten wrong along the way. God's Word was not just a comfort but it gave me hope when I would lose all hope!

There is only one thing in this world that will never perish or fade away and that’s the Word of God!

 This picture was taken on a trip through Georgia, December 2013.