Saturday, September 15, 2018

My Future Is In His Hands written by Tracey Graham

written September 19, 2017

"Appearance is something absolute, but reality is not that way - everything is interdependent, not absolute."  -Dalai Lama

It's been a while since I've written my thoughts down. For the last month or so, I've been lost. I don't know what to write, what to pray for or some days how to function.


It's been said that if you're still alive then God has a plan to use you. I'm alive but I don't know what he could possibly use me for? There are so many areas in my life that I need to work on, to give over to him to change me. The last month, I've been ashamed of who I've become. I so desperately want to change but I'm so scared of how to begin or more scared of....will the change last?

I finally realized that I sabotage relationships, good relationships. I push them away. I thought I was over my abandonment issues but I think there is something deeper that I'm not seeing. God, I need you to reveal my heart, my issues or what is the cause of my issues.

My Heavenly Father - I need you to pour down your Holy Spirit over me. I am lost, and I don't know how to overcome it. Only you can pull me up out of this pit and renew my spirit, my heart, my love for you. I pray that you will make all things new.  In your precious son's name - AMEN!!!

written by Tracey Graham